Entry 00 - 6:45am
The sound of an extremely annoying static from my alarm clock was provoking me to punch it's "clock" out this morning as I woke. I also realized that I have awaken to a long awaited dream. I've wished for hours on end for a new beginning. And finally....yes...FINALLY the day has come! I have a new life and it's time to rush to my new job. Everything was so surreal to me as I dressed. Laughing hysterically like a mad man, I pressed every ounce of energy upon one SINGLE breath of life. And facing the sun glistening window, I let out a big long breath of relief. Only one thought raced through my mind and it was that the past is behind me and the storm has ended.
I rode in the passenger seat to work eating my cup full of Cherrios. Yes...my mother is driving me to work. "Mom, please don't embarrass me in front of the vice president!" I told her. She laughed and smiled. "I'm glad you're home mijo." I usually can't stand too much time with my own Mother, yet this was one of those moments that I forgot existed. My once numb soul has began to beat a rythme of life again. But yet, the entire ride to work was rumbled by my past. Thoughts and memories raced through my mind filling my head with doubt and fear that the same thing may happen here. All the scars and wounds began to burn and throb inside of my chest like thorns were growing out from me. Endlessly covering my body with a thick and sharp outer coating keeping the new away from me. My skin was tearing apart to make room for this thorn infested creature I've managed to chain within. I could feel myself screaming inside of my mind and suddenly I controlled it. Something new had linked into my will.
This is a new season in my life. This is a new beginning. Who I am today never existed yesterday. I still have wounds...and fascinating enough, my body has built inside a new heart for me. It's not the same withered, dead, and dry handful of crap. It's created a heart much similar to that of a rose. I....AM....MADE...OF....THORNS...
8:25am....It's time to walk into the first day of work...
~End~
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